Friday, January 30, 2009
wanna blog ytd.. but somehow forgot...
anyway, i was overwhelmed ytd. cos i somehow can feel the love from grandma le. haha. =) and i am very very glad abt it. is kinda ridiculous to say abt this when i had spent years with her.. but i sometimes do feel tt grandma practises favouritism and she doesnt dote on me as much as she dotes some of my cousins.. haha. and i tink is becos i had done something this wk tt made her proud and made her like me even more ba.. =)
though the way i write may let ppl tink tt i am jus being jealous of my cousins.. but from the bottom of my heart, i am not jealous at all.. cos there isnt anything for me to be jealous with.. and i am very happy tt i somehow can sense grandma's love from me.. though is through her minor actions, i still appreciate it a lot.. and i really thank god for it.. cos i had waited for years =)
suddenly, the 'emo' feeling came.. n i feel weird now.. dunno why.. tinking abt my 'A' results (becos of Gavin.. haha).. worried abt work and wonder is it possible for me to work well with my colleagues given our age gap.. and also something else which i dunno how to express it.. haha. anyway, is the empty feeling tt makes me feel weird ba.. cos i seldom feel this way =(
so.. HELP! i need counsellors! haha. ok.. tink i am jus too tired.
off with a smile ended @ 9:39 pm
