Friday, December 08, 2006
These few days i hav been going St Joseph church for evening mass..
At 1st, feel quite outcast.. cos i dunno the order of the mass then super blur. They gt a weekday missal bk to refer, but i dun hav. Only some parts of the mass quite similar to my church de. So can still follow..
oh ya. only aunties n uncles attending the mass. I was the only youth there. So a bit awkward. But i console myself by telling myself tt we are all brothers and sisters in Christ. So alright. haha. Gt influenced by FangJie. Keep psycho-ing myself..
Gt to noe a few aunties n uncles as days go by. They seem to recognise me le. Feel quite happy la. Cos feel quite welcome. Seldom gt this feeling in my church. Cos i nt so close wif most of the aunties n uncles. Haiz. nt even the youths. If they tok to me ar, i will happy for the whole day. haha.
God seems to ans my prayer. Cos yesterdae went church, then saw Father standing outside talking to his caretaker, auntie mary. So i went up to him to ask him for confession. N he agreed immediately. Waa.. lucky sia. Mama says tt sometimes Father dun allow ppl to find him for confessions de, unless during weekends or wad.. i also nt sure. So during confession, Father told me tt my sins r nt tt serious de and he wan me to be a loving, caring and kind person towards my family n frens. hehe. Oh ya, i also ask him how to get prepared for Confirmation. Then he told me tt, hmm.. i mus surrender myself to God and ask God to guide me on the right path everyday and may the holy spirit inspires me to be a Good Catholic with gd character. N feel tt it is nt as hard to get prepared. Need to hav faith which is very impt. Hope all my catechism class frens will get prepared for their Confirmation on Sunday. I prayed for u all. =)
After listening to Father's words, feel quite prepared for Confirmation le =). hmm.. so hope tt on tt very day, i will nt be distracted by the devil. I scared tt i will give in to the devil then keep looking at him then gt distracted.. waa.. grrr.. Cannt!! need to psycho myself le. i wan the whole ritual to be meaningful to me.. So Devil dun COME NEAR ME!!! Dun let me sin against God. Oh ya. most imptly, i cannt get angry!! God pls bless me =)
off with a smile ended @ 1:15 pm
